Clarissa's World

Has anyone ever come across things in reality?
I did and its really sucky! Shyt were thrown to you when u are too kind and you are been treated as shyt when you are too bad.
But  i have learn something, Never treat a person too nice...
I AM ALWAYS TREATING PEOPLE NICE, but this time Trust me, I won't be too good already..
some people are taking advantage of me... and that's really shyt...

and i am trying to change my sotongness into more attentive, I just need time. JIAYOU CLARISSA :D

Happy Chinese new year everyone..
Today Wake up damn early to go school. Why do we still have school during Chinese new year eve.. aww D:
Totally not in a study but still have to stay awake and listen...
After school accompany my Laopo and Gay partner down to East point they have Umi sushi i just eat a bit only.
After that train down i alight a Lavander Baby come to MRT to pick me.. Went over to his house for Steamboat with his family plus his younger brother GF. haha.
Around 4pm drive his younger brother gf home, and drop his brother at changi for work. Den baby fetch me go Compass pass kenny things.
after that he send me home :D So sweet of him right? <3 always love him la.

Had my second round of Steamboat around 6plus.. With my family. Crazy cousins...
After that we played board game and majong and now just finish count down watch the horoscope things.
I hope me and baby will be smooth this year...

and Baby so sweet la <3 before he go to be he wish my Happy new year <3
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE :D wish you all can get a lot ang bao <3 <3

As you guys know this few days my mood is pretty bad cause I lost my iphone sigh. its a pretty long and sad story which i don't want to post..
just want to thanks all for care and concern I am having I depression.. Thanks baby for trying to make me happy and Lucy !!!
Thanks everyone

I have lie in a millon to my parents. I am a bad girl..
I hate to lie but they just could not understand. So i'll just have to confess every white lies i have on my blog
I am not raising any attention from them or something, i just blog how i felt here. No harm right?
But i know once my parents know all this lie they are going to asked me thousand of question. Or just ignoring it or just scream their voice at me.
or accussing something that's i didn't do :((

I have lie to them about staying over at my friends house or chalet.
Everytime i want to go stayed over at my bf house i have to lie to them about all this.... My sister even asked me before and i truly answer a Yes to her.
but she advise not to always go his house due to not really good.
I can understand what's my sister trying to tell me. But really everytime i stayed over at his house is for a reason..
its either Sat morning i have to go somewhere near his place? Or it might be due to my house internet sot. I went over to his place to use internet using my lappy.
I understand that if my parents know they might worried this and that but i know what i am doing.. I can different shape between right and wrong. I am already grown up not longer a kid, I always act like your lil angel infront of you been a really childish kid. But sometimes you guys can see i am also mature?

Always dragging my friends in really make me guilty, even if they say its ok, but the guilty of dragging an innocent party is hard for me.

To tell you guys the true, i actully confess that i have a boyfriend to my parents, and this is freaking my first time telling them this.
I used to remember before i turn 18 or before i even meet my bf my dad once told me.
"if you want to find a lot of boyfriends is ok. Just that in the end you have to truely find the one that treat you right"
and when i told him his reaction totally different from the convo above.
I thought he would just support me in it. But everything turn out not in my way.
I even told him, if he's worried i can bring him home to let him see how he is.
but he just reply me " I no need to see him bla bla bla"
I even told him his age. OK I shall tell you guys.

WE ARE 8 YEARS APART IN TERMS OF AGE....

i accepted the facts. So what we are far apart. Love can't be control by me, Once its arrive it arrived.
All my friends and even my sister who i thought will object accpeted the facts, and she felt its ok too.
Lots of my friend did. Some even envy me, cause mature boys are better den childish boys (sorry if i offended anybody)
My dad kinda can't

Dad want me to focus on my path cause i once told him my aim is to go University, and he might afraid it will affect my path.
I just want to say It won't affect but it actully improve cause at least now i have someone to teach me things that happen in this reality that we teens don't really know. Even in my studies when i got problem he will always be the one to teach me even its not related to what he study he will read and study with me at the same time...

Dad even say they care for me that's why they are doing like this. I know and understand why, they hate me to compare myself with other people but its true
some parent really don't mind. Not because they don't care about their children but its because they trusted them, and accepted the facts.

Dad even told me. knowing some one isn't about a month its takes years,
yes i know that. but that the reason why DATING and been boyfriend and girlfriend are doing right?
Its not like i told you. "dad i am getting married" -_-
we are know each other, even if its take years. But i don't know la

Mum reaction was worse. She straight reject it. cause she thinks i am too young to been in a relationship, what's wrong with 18-19 going into a relationship aint they the same? My mum met my dad was also 19.
I know their aim is 21 for girls. but as i said love arrive uncontrolable.

Yar and whenever there's public hoilday like Christmas or maybe the upcoming CNY, I hope he'll be there, but i don't think there will be a chance.
Whenever i went to his house. I will feel very paiseh too, cause he haven visited mine, Maybe just once during new year where my silblings are around but my parents are oversea. Just once.
Its hard and tiring to be lie-ing,

at first i confess to them is because i want to stop lie-ing about things, but i somehow think that' Its no different from not saying...
So readers out there or who ever is reading. What should i do?  I am really tired of lie-ing I HATE that.
so during cny if ppl asked me if i have a boyfriend should i say YES OR NO?

TAG ME :(
Goodnight

Arg... Got nothing much to post right now...
Chinese new year is around the corner, have everyone brought their new year clothes?
I bet i have but i am not really looking foward to it as it might be bored. But i hope its not?
alright short and sweet will post more again

Hello i am back to blog.
morning to evening always got nothing to post, cause i;ll be at work. But working life isn't that boring as i said.
cause somehow i have fun :D.
sad to say a few more months i'll be leaving the company, thought of continue working there, but can't needa continue my path on studying,
Will find another good and stable job, really in need of money.
Anyway i just want to say this here just a random one.
"I won't leave my friends because i have a boyfriend"
somehow i was thinking a lots of people thought i have forgotten them like serious?
I didn't forget you guys and yet i am becoming like heartless people.
People forget me and not i forget people Ya!
Why am i so easily been forget, Not the first time already :[
I'll still care for my boyfriend but i wll not forget my friends too. Don't take me like some other people!
Recently i have rashes all over my body hais, damn itchy :( can't restrict the itchy AH!!
That's all bye!

Wow! i am back in blogging. Somehow thinking should i change my blog back to blogspot or tumblr, cause seriously i abit bored with onsugar, maybe i don't know how to use th function? or maybe its somhow troublesome, or should i just stick to it?
well shall just see how. Maybe if i change back to blogspot i'll post like everyday or something ?
Things turn out different in 2011, i am taking and learning new things. it cost quite a sum of money, but i guess i still can cope with it.
and i also learn that sometimes thing stuck inside your heart is hard to remove. I let it go but it still came back :(
Hoping to kick off it! Yup Jiayou.

Somehow, 2011 almost turn out bad for me.
But now i am still really very tired of thinking of what i should do this year.
Which course should i go? How my systems work. Why everything clash. ARG

But what i am happy is that this coming fri i am going to start my first guitar lesson HURRAY!
I must work hard and play hard this year. Things gonna change. Sometimes no matter how bad i want it. I still must Edure!
I know i can. just like i can't see baby for the past 2 days in the end he come and look for me in sengkang. So sweet XD <3
But someone own me a lot alot of things XD he must be even more stress now while reading?

alright. 2011! Clarissa JIAYOU!

Its a brand new year today :) Here by wishing Each and everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
This year may it fills with happiness more den sadness. For those Single parties i hope you guys could find the love of your lifetime this year.
for those who are attached i hope you guys can cherish each and every moment with each other... No qurrel and do give in and take that the only solution.
Went for new year count down at Marina. Its was crowded with people, First new year spent with baby, shinvy and Raymond kor kor.
The fireworks is really pretty, we got a pretty good spots too.
Me and baby made a new year resolution i hope we both keep to our promise..
BABY I promise you i'll made the resolution come true.
After that went down to singapore flyers for some walk and chill around. Baby drive me home after that wasn't feeling very well. Caught a cold.
Sorry to make baby worry.. That's all. Enjoy the new 2011 ahead.

Message:

To baby:
2010 might be short for us but we been through a lot, I have always make you angry and sad, but i promise you that 2011 gonna be different, I'll grow up abit Not making you stress and worried for me anymore. You have always been giving in to me i really happy and appreciate each and everything you done for me.
2011 i predict gonna change a lot of things in our life, i hope we stay strong in this R/S no matter what things get in our way.I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU YOU!! <3

To all my friend
Happy new year to all my beloved friends out there.
I hope our friendship will last till the end, no one leave and no one goes. No matter which ranking you are in my life i still appreciate all the things done.
My babes have always been there for me whenever i need them really happy hope to meet up more often, but due to the timing of work and etc, we seldom meet that's often right?
I hope everything for you guys can go on smoothly JIAYOU!!!

to my family:
I hope you guys can stay healthy and happy. Will like to have more family outing cause i really miss those time spending tgt crazy and happy.

HERE BYE WISHING YOU GUYS HAPPY 2011

Woo~ xmas is just around the corner.... Friday i am awaiting half day at work Ho SEH :)
Going to have family celebration follow by my babes celebration...
hais... lots of things are just stuck inside my heart and i just didnt actully say out everything.... Why am i so stupid? Sigh.
I ony told baby half only there still more things but oh well

goodnight